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Photo by my son…

I just wanted to give the credit for the BEAUTIFUL photo at the top of this blog to my son Jeremy.  He has taken many great photos and I am grateful that he is allowing me to use this one.

Great job, Jeremy!

(c) Copyright Notice 2018.  The photos in this blog are Jeremy’s, unless otherwise noted, and need his express written permission to be used by anyone.  The words are mine and now you must get my express written permission to use them.  Also, you must give a clear credit and path back to james.bruce.mcnaughton@gmail.com and https://i-m-4-u.com/

Thank you!

Jim

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Welcome to I AM for You!

My goal is to share the love of Jesus that he has shared with me.  

Love does not condemn people, but love does condemn that which harms people, known in the Bible as “sin.”  These actions I am against, not the people doing them.  My life was sinful when I met Jesus.  I denied it.  And spent ten years under His wrath while He humbled me.  When I admitted my sin and accepted Jesus my life changed.  Now I am not sinless, but I do sin less.  I still fall short and need His forgiveness.

Join me as we discuss Jesus, Mental Illness, and the combination of both.

 

Application for “Don’t Judge me…”

It has been said that the Christian army is the only army that shoots its own wounded. Headlines read: Big Name Pastor ______ allegedly has ongoing sin… And I immediately discount all he has said, (that has helped me greatly) as suspect, and act like I’m not a Big Name Sinner MYSELF! (I’m not Big Name but you get the idea). I struggle with sin, my guess is everyone struggles with sin. If I don’t struggle with sin, then how long have I been in denial? If BNP is guilty, I don’t condemn him behind his back, I read my last post: Don’t Judge me.. please help me. If I condemn BNP I condemn myself, because, contrary to some denominations’ teaching, none of us are perfect and I do the same (types of) things myself. The only difference is I put a spotlight on his sin and close my eyes to mine. This is called hypocrisy. My compassion goes out to the women affected, I know what it is like to be physically assaulted by another system that is supposed to protect me; to not to be believed; and the fear involved in going against that same system.

Don’t Judge me… please help me

I continue to try to develop my understanding of Matthew Chapter 7

I hope this is better than similar previous attempts.

Judging Others verses Healing Others verses Don’t Mess with Perfection (i.e.,Great Need)

1 “Do not judge so that you will not be judged.
2 “For in the way you judge, you will be judged; and by your standard of measure, it will be measured to you.

If I judge you it is because I have done the same thing (or in some way a similar thing) and I have condemned myself for it.  I don’t judge people with problems I don’t have.  I tend to have compassion on those people.

3 “Why do you look at the speck that is in your brother’s eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye?

I decide my brother has a fault.  My deciding my brother has a fault is my fault.

4 “Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ and behold, the log is in your own eye?

How can I remove my brother’s supposed fault, if thinking he has a fault is my fault?

5 “You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye.

If I remove the log from my eye (i.e. I stop identifying my brother’s behavior as a fault), I see that what I thought was a fault is really the outward expression of an internal need.  Now I don’t want to punish his “fault” to correct him, I want to meet his need to heal him.  (And the “speck” is removed).

6 “Do not give what is holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.

Some people don’t want their “speck” removed, i.e., they don’t want their need met, because they don’t want their sin exposed so it can be healed. They reject the idea that they even have a speck.  They reject the Healer (Jesus), and His messengers: such as me, because they don’t have any problem or need that requires healing and they are already happy and perfect the way they are and they reject anything that implies otherwise…   

Those are the faults.  But Jesus might say:  Their need is great. 

They may have hoped for unconditional love and been rejected at critical times in their life. They may not have been able to find true love when they needed it and were open to it.  Cynicism filled the space where love should have lived and it became critical, and at the same time too dangerous, to hope for unconditional love again.  Unwilling to risk rejection again they become entrenched in what they knew was wrong, blaming others, defying God, hardening their heart and rejecting their only option for true love and peace:  Jesus.  But, until you take your last breath Jesus offers unconditional love and says, Anyone who comes to me, I will not cast out.

(I have experienced my pearls trampled and my self being verbally torn to pieces.  I ignored Jesus’ warning and talked about Jesus to someone Jesus said not to talk to right now.  It was not fun, I recommend heeding Jesus’ warnings).

New American Standard Bible: 1995 update. (1995). (Mt 7). La Habra, CA: The Lockman Foundation.

Scripture less than 25% of total.

 

What if I don’t “Choose?” (part 2)

This is an addition to “What if I don’t want a “Savior?”

I just read the above and noticed that someone could say they used their will and chose not to choose, either for or against surrendering to Jesus.  Jesus is stuck then isn’t he?  They didn’t say yes, they didn’t say no.  What is Jesus going to do?  They didn’t reject Jesus or his love, they just didn’t choose.

Giving “no answer” to the offer of life and relationship with Jesus is giving the “answer no” to the offer of life and relationship to Jesus.  Jesus suffered infinite pain so that you could avoid hell and be with him forever.  He has drawn you to read this to tell you of his infinite love for you.  He offers you himself.  He gives you the choice, because He will not force himself on you.  Love doesn’t force itself on anyone.  All of Jesus wants all of you.  There are no games here . . .  such as saying you won’t decide.  This is eternal life or eternal death.  This is your choice.  If . . . by your last breath, you don’t turn away from your sins with His help, and ask Him to save you . . .  you will experience forever without the One who loves you most . . . alone. . . in anguish that you rejected Love. . .  forever without hope.

 

More from Karen…

Love One Another

I asked the Lord, what is my purpose,
What was I created for?
He said, it is to open up and
let me in
When I come knocking at your door.

I love you, he said;
I have created YOU to love. Now go and love your brother;
Do this for me, your Father up above.

I know YOUR love’s inadequate,
And without my power it’s something you can’t do.
So I’ve sent my Holy Spirit To live inside of you.

With my light and love in you,
You have a power like none on earth.
When you believed, my Spirit filled you.
It was then, I gave you a brand new birth.

So go love one another!
And when you step out in love you’ll find
That I am with you always Until the very end of time.

By KR
copyright 9-19-18

Trying something new

I don’t know that I have joked much in this blog, but during the day I am joking constantly.  One person has said that joking is an adult defense mechanism.  Another person told me after I didn’t accept a compliment, “Deflect, deflect, deflect.”  I am going to try and cut down on the jokes for a while.  And if compliments come my way I will accept them.  Perhaps I can have a whole conversation with someone without joking?

Help Me Hear His Call

(Karen is an excellent poet, more than that, she is an excellent lyricist.
I listen to her poems as songs and I hope they are set to music some day.
I have invited her to share her work here, until I can convince her to blog – Jim).

Help Me Hear His Call

I’m hanging by my fingertips;
Is there anyone who cares?
Is there anyone who is reaching out to me,
Anyone who dares?

Yes, my life is messy;
I have sins and doubts and fears.
But, is there anyone who’ll love me,
Who dares to join me here?

Can you point me to our Savior,
Show me what he does?
Can you come along beside me
Until I feel his awesome love?

I’m hanging by my fingertips;
Please, don’t let me fall.
Show me, that God is holding on to me;
Help me hear his call!

By

Karen Rawlings
1-18-18

copyrighted 2018 Karen Rawlings
used by permission

 

Generational shame… expressed as Mental Illness?

Sleep, Work, “Demons,” My Co-workers, My Wife, Clarity and Shame.  What do these have in common?  Possibly overcoming my mental illness.

Sleep.
My C-Pap machine and I are not getting along.  I’m getting between 1.5 and 3 hours real sleep a night.  The remainder of the 8 hours I’m either awake or without the C-Pap (the appearance of sleep but choking as I breath; worse than the effect of not sleeping).

Work.
Going through the day constantly wanting to go to sleep distracts me from concentrating on my work.  I make mistakes and feel shame that I am too ashamed to tell anyone about.

“Demons.”
I have had demonic-inpired feelings tell me how much they hate me and how I should hate myself; for years.

My Co-workers.
Today I admitted my struggles to my co-workers and instead of getting the rejection that the “Demons” told me would happen.  I got affirmation.

My Wife.
My Wife’s affirmation is the most important to me, I value her opinion the most.  And when I told her about my current struggles she communicated love, acceptance, safety to me.  Armed with my team’s affirmation and my wife’s affirmation I tried to see what this was all about.

Clarity.
With the affirmations coming from work and home I dared explore the source of the “Demons.”  What I discovered has been driving my self-hatred is that I am ashamed that I am not able to do my job at work.  Though this shames drives me daily – the negative thoughts, the self-hate, the fear of failure – I never consciously thought of it before today.

Shame.
Shame started with Adam and Eve.  It has been passed down to every generation.  Shame entered my life and I did not know how to deal with it.  But Jesus does know how to deal with it.  He has been removing it from my life through healthier thinking habits learned from my Team’s example at work.  And by learning how to love from my wife’s example of the last thirty years.

Now that I know the real enemy I can concentrate on the solution and not be sidetracked by diversions from that same enemy.

Thank you Jesus for leading me.  Let’s finish this healing.

God’s Message.
I heard the following every Sunday at church when I was growing up:

9b . . . visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children, and on the third and the fourth generations of those who hate Me,
10 but showing lovingkindness to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My commandments.

New American Standard Bible: 1995 update. (1995). (Dt 5:9b–10). La Habra, CA: The Lockman Foundation.