I wrote about feeling like I am a “Phoenix rising from the ashes.” Though the post was “liked” it did not generate a “responder.” Perhaps you don’t know that I only recently felt like I was a “Phoenix rising.”
Much of the time I have felt like a “Turkey dying” :>)
Jesus has been changing me slowly for 30 years. Though Christ made me complete the moment I trusted him, I have to act on the “new” that he has put in my spirit and not act on the “old” that is still in my flesh. Jesus gives me His Spirit to guide me in all this and I walk with him, doing what I see him doing.
If you don’t know Jesus personally and have not surrendered to his leadership you may wonder what this is all about. With great effort, you can rise above your ashes without surrendering to Jesus. But trying to be satisfied without Jesus is like trying to drink from a dry well. I have done this not once, but countless times. As it has been said, doing the same thing over and over hoping for a different result is insane.
The Bible is a Life Instruction Book. If you read it nothing good happens. If you read it and DO what it says, it will lead you to The One Who will meet your every need and will never, ever leave you.
Jesus has been wonderful to me in my transition. He has given me the most wonderful wife, who puts up with me much, much more than anyone except Jesus would. He has given me a wonderful job. I have the opportunity to encourage and serve people who have infinite value and worth, and I am able to tell some of them just that. (Who may not have ever been told they have infinite value and worth before).
Life has been a 30-year adventure, punctuated by struggles of doubt and fear, and more often trust and joy, but my life has always been in the hands of a loving Father.